Less is good & easier, isn't it?

Hi everyone. I am Anne. I've been here on 7 Cup for few years. Keep coming back whenever I need someone as a listener. Last 2-3 years ago, I had an early sign of depression diagnosed by a 2 caring doctors ( Didn't told them that I had suicidal thoughts because dont want to make my mom worried though) & followed their advise, I manage to overcome it not long after. Recently, I find myself feeling down back. I feel disappointed with my family. Sometimes, I hate my siblings, my parents & even my cat. I feel like no one could understand me. My cat used to make me feel loved & calm, now become grumpy with me. I took care of him since he still a kitten,when he was abandoned by his mom on the street. Whenever I discipline my cat, my family will talk sarcastically on me. I spent most of my money on my family & cat supplies. My siblings don't spend their money like I did on family & my dad is stingy. Whenever I plan to buy things for myself, the money will go to my family first then the balance will use to buy what I want. Sometimes I need to save up until I get the thing. When I bought things for myself, my siblings talk sarcastically about it (because they receive the parcel for me) Sometimes my mom ask to buy thing for her when she know I have extra money. I was asked to drive around when I exhausted / not in a good mood. Hardly go out alone (driving) without my mom with me. My younger brother had few more cats that they love & no one listen to me to keep those cat under control (neuter). Nowadays, I keep asking why I had siblings, dad & those unwanted cats. If those doesn't exists, my life would be more convenience & easier. Can't they just go away from my life??