Locked home, alone

I'm Davide, 45 and I'm a scientist and I'm in lockdown!

I don't really know what I'm feeling these days. I live alone, I've always lived alone. Until the advent of COVID19, I tolerated living alone. I'm good friend with many colleagues of mine, we used to go out for dinner, drinks, trips. I worked 7am-7pm and I never had time to have a hobby or develop some interest.

Since the begginning of March, I'm in lockdown at home and I haven't met any of my friends. I don't have brothers and sisters, or close parents. I've never felt so alone in my life.

Additionally, to make things worst, I fell in love with my neighbor. She's 39 and single, and she was kind to me. However, she is not interested, and I'm suffering. This made me feel alone even more.

Anyway, hello everyone, I hope things will get better!

(sorry for my bad english)