Loneliness.
Every single day is living in a dark shadow. I waste hours counting down the time.. isolation all to severe. Losing my job a few months back, no consistent income and recieving government payments hard to survive on but the little money received is immediately gone in a day or two to fund a parents addiction. For every step taken forward I don't feel worthy. I mess up time and time again. My own addictions smoking, sex, phone usage are slowly plagiarising my sanity.. I'm failing in the motivation of living so much so sleep either elludes or is excessive to the point I've missed out on entire day's of opportunities. Lack of moderation sufficed by quick mood boosters leave me trapped in a constant cycle of mundanity. I need help.
@Patrickj95
I'm going to give you some unconventional advice: FAST
Try not eating for 2-3 days. Just drink a lot of water. When ever you feel hungry, drink some more water.
Seriously. It can help a lot. You will feel a bit uncomfortbale and tired at some points but you will also gain a very new and important perspective i think. You learn that you can really be in controll. YOU decide what you want to do in your life. You just have to find the right feeling of commitment and an appropriate course of action.
