New goose in town

Hello, everyone. Recurrently depressed person here, reaching out for the first time ever. I was gonna go see a doctor but that costs money. So, here I am! I am foggy and indecisive lately, so I don't really know what to say... Everything just seems kind of gray and blah in my life and I have NO GOALS! Nothing even sounds good. I have a great life, too, so I'm mad at myself for taking it for granted. I just want to be free of depression!