Not sure what's wrong with me..?

Hi there,

I am new

I am not entirely sure what is all wrong with me because I have never been to a doctor before about it (or ever really talked to anyone). I always thought I could fix myself.. by myself.. without anyone's help.. and the older I am getting (29) the more I am realizing maybe I need more help.

I am one of those people that "self diagnose". Probably my medical career to blame. I have come to the conclusion that I most likely suffer from life-long depression & social anxiety. My depression gets much worse in the winter and this is when life gets really hard. So hard that I've quit most jobs I have had because of my symptoms. For whatever reason I will make any excuse in the book so that I don't have to go to work and see anyone. This usually results in getting fired or quiting.

I am sure my issues are genetic because my siblings & father suffer from similar issues. My sister is bipolar so I have wondered if maybe I am as well.. but I honestly can't tell if I am just depressed or what. I don't care to be diagnosed... I just care to make a positive change in my life.

I took Zoloft for my depression a few years ago... I was on it for about 6 months and lost so much weight it made me under my healthy weight range, it also gave me insomnia, and honestly made me more depressed than I was before. So I don't believe medication is my awnser.

I have done CBT on my own with some sucess.. I have also taken CBD for symptoms which has also helped. However, I don't want to cover the symptoms anymore.. but get to the basis of my problems so maybe I can actually make a change in my life and live better.

I guess with this post I am hoping there are other people out there like me that know a little bit more about whats going on.

Many thanks,