So, hello

I dont know if I should be posting here. I dont have the depression diagnosis or anything. I just googled how Ive been feeling for the past 20 years and thats what I come up with.

I wont bore you all with the details. Typical crap. Bad childhood, two failed relationships, health problems, homelessness at times, etc etc. Ive tried the big S a few times. ( Ive learned not to say the word)

so hello, hope I am not wasting anyones time. Im very new here. Just trying new things to not go litteraly insane.