@Ch1oeB
Hey there, sweet girl. I have been where you are now. I don't know your circumstances, but I can tell you this: the fact you are aware you are relapsing AND you have posted here is huge. It is a cry for help, I think, and that is such a big step. It means you know you want to be better. You want support. I don't know if you have turned to a Listener or not, but I am here for you. I see my 19 year old self in your brief post. I was 18 when I became anorexic and it is a battle I have fought on and off and I am now 29. Everyone is different in their recovery period, there's no set amount of time for healing. And relapsing happens. I relapsed as recently as a few years ago, except I turned to skipping meals as a result of too much stress and letting it affect me to the point of not eating. Right now you want to hate yourself for slipping. When you've been so careful and worked...and then you're at the bottom of the stairs in a heap. But it happens...and again, your posting here is you looking back up at those stairs and saying, "I need to climb again."
I don't know if you want to share your story further. Or if you have and I didn't see it, I saw your post on the sidebar of the forums and it struck me. Everyone who is anorexic is different...and yet we are the same. If you want to talk a little further so I can help you better, that's up to you. Or if you've already reached out to a Listener, that's fine too. But I feel for you, right now I'm hurting for you, and I am here for you. I still don't know if this site has messaging beyond Listeners, but you are not alone. Posting here shows you still have some strength. And whether you respond or not, or see this soon, just know and feel this: you are strong. You can fight back. You've already taken good strides. Stay strong. Be strong. I am thinking of you and sending you good vibes.
@CleopatraElizabethI Wow. This means ever so much! I never thought anyone would take the time to speak with me... I am proud of you for battling! Are you listener?
@Ch1oeB
I am not a Listener. Just a friend from afar who saw myself in you. I' m not sure if the site allows private messaging or not, but if you still need a friend and a voice/ear, I'm here for you. :-)
@Ch1oeB
If you want to move forward with this situation perhaps you really want to consider expert advise. Professionals are there to coach us and help us get through situations that are out of our control.
Please consider this if you are ready, we all deserve to feel healthy and happy!:)
