Confuzzled
I'm not sure about what's going on in my head but I feel like this is the closest place i could come to to try and fit in and have someone understand what i'm saying. I'm not diagnosed and I possily do not have an eating disorder but in my head, everyday it's a struggle between "to eat" & "to not eat." From seeing a food and thinking "ooo, that must be good" to instantly switching to "no, you don't need calories" and frantically looking up calories of everything through the day. It all stems from how I'm unhappy with my appearance and how i wish i could change myself and i guess this is my way to bring about a change in me. It's so difficult to be happy and go out with people and then you see a picture of all of you and there i am, standing out with the way i look and the only thoughts in my head that are alive at that point are negative.
Kinda blabbering on but i'm confused and don't know who to talk to so here I am. Ta da
@Hapish
Hi. I'm glad you have posted and that you are reaching out to help you make sense of it all. Most people can find it a hard postition to be in when you are feeling confused
It all stems from how I'm unhappy with my appearance - its good that you already have an awareness of what your drivers are, i wonder how long you have felt like this? And how you have tried to change your appearance in the past?
i wish i could change myself and i guess this is my way to bring about a change in me - change is always difficult because we don't always tackle it from the correct position or starting point. Is good that you accept things can change, its just about finding the best way to do it for you.
the only thoughts in my head that are alive at that point are negative. - i would be interetsed to know what you are saying to yourself at those times, and just how you useful those thoughts are to you?
i'm confused and don't know who to talk to - well I'm here! I'm a listener with a special interest in issues such as this. I also offer long term support as you will see if you view my profile.
So please feel free to message me or reply to this post whatever you feel most comfortable with.
Take care
paul
Kinda blabbering on but i'm confused and don't know who to talk to so here I am. Ta da
@calmPaul281 I'd love to message you, bless. Thank you for taking the time and reading my post and writing out a thoughtful response. <3