Telling people
Only 3 IRL people in the world know I'm Anorexic, I was doing so great and I'm free-falling again. I can't always eat because I have a paralysed stomach that digests food slowly so I'm afraid of I tell people that they will be upset with me when I physically can't eat. That they will try to police my food. I am trying not to fall in the pit again but the voice in my head says I'm a horrible person and don't deserve to eat. That I am fat and worthless and that voice just keeps getting louder. Sometimes I can eat ok and some days it takes me 2 hours to convince myself to eat 3 Skittles.
I just had to get this out before I imploded.
Thanks for reading. Don't feel you have to respond and waste your time talking to me.
@RemenyTheWriter I had a similar issue when I was coming out of anorexia and something that really helped me was taking digestive enzymes with every meal. They're little capsules that contain a probiotic of sorts that help you break down food and they really helped me get past the digestive issues I had after starving myself for so long. I don't know if they would be of any help to you but you might want to check them out!
Don't apologize for venting dear. It's a struggle and we are all here for you while you work through this.
@RemenyTheWriter I know how you feel, im still recovering from anorexia. I didn't have that many digestive problems after I started eating again. I wanted to say something so that you could talk to someone else if you wanted but I didn't know what to say, sorry. But if we dont talk I hope things improve for you 😊❤ .