Terrified of Day Treatment

I started treatment at the Renfrew Center a few weeks ago. I've been doing weekly outpatient therapy for years, and haven't gotten intensive therapy until now. After starting intensive outpatient, (IOP) my ed seemed to worsen. Now I have to level up and begin Day Treatment next week. I'm so scared. I'm scared of being judged and seen as overweight and not in need of treatment. I'm afraid of people thinking I eat too much and don't have an eating disorder. I'm scared of my insurance not covering my stay. I need to go to Day, but really don't want to. I want to recover, but don't know if I'd like my life without an eating disorder. There's so much uncertainty. Anorexia sucks.