Binge eating, help :(
I've ate out of boredom for a longtime in my life, basically since I remember, for the past few months I've been unhappy with my body and recently I tried to do something about it, I tries to restrict calories (around [edited by Anomalia to remove calorie specifics] cal) but end up binging . I don't eat until after school (no time for breakfast and I don't like my lunch) when I get back home I eat my dinner and I end up binging after dinner even though I am not hungry, I honestly don't know what to do, it makes me feel worse about myself and makes me feel fatter than I already am, it makes me feel bad about myself. People comment on my body saying how I'm "goals" and have a great body, but I don't see it, my inner thighs have a lot of fat and my outer thigh is really muscley which I hate, and people keep saying that "thick/fat" legs (or bodies in general ) look hot etc. But when I say IDC what others think and That I'm doing it for myself no one listens
Sorry for this long 'rant' 💕
@sympatheticLunch3973
May I ask what is your height/weight? It's difficult to say what the problem is without knowing.
@CreedAngelus
I am [edited by Anomalia for weight specifics] kg and 149-150 cm
@sympatheticLunch3973
Ah... anorexic?
BMI system classifies that as underweight.
@CreedAngelus
No I'm not anorexic
@sympatheticLunch3973
Well... you ARE underweight. I'm underweight. I should know.
@CreedAngelus But I am not anorexic, and I don't look at all underweight
@sympatheticLunch3973
Have you considered it's all just perception?
BMI as a ratio can be interpreted to express the density of your adipose tissue.
If it says you are underweight, that means your mass of adipose tissue in your body is lower than the normal amount in a person of your volume. To put this into perspective, a person of your height would need to weigh 41.6 kilos in order to be considered "average." OR person of your weight would need to be 141.4 cm tall to be considered average.
This is more of a self-perception issue than a binge eating problem, if I can be honest.
@CreedAngelus
I disagree. Even if I eat "normally" ( have lunch, supper etc. ) which I usually do. I still binge, usually things full of fats, carbs and calories ( sweet things )
@sympatheticLunch3973
I understand that habitual binge eating can make you feel disgusted, but from what you've said so far, it hasn't actually made you go overweight.
Our bodies often attempt to form habits with good reason. Sleep cycles... eating habits... perhaps your body sends you cravings because it knows you are underweight? Often, non-anorexic people who are underweight have large apetites. Eating a lot without actually getting overweight means you have a high metabolic rate that burns off excess fat as energy quickly.
@CreedAngelus
I don't actually I think my metabolism only burns around 1200 calories
@sympatheticLunch3973
Your BMI says otherwise... When was the last time you felt comfortable staring at your figure?
I'd like you to know that even if you do have an underweight BMI, your issues with binge eating are valid and so are your issues with restriction. Even though people compliment you and tell you your body is great, you don't believe it, and struggle with a negative self-image. It sounds like with all the time you spend not eating during the day (skipping breakfast and lunch), once you finally eat dinner, you're still hungry and need to binge to compensate for the hunger. You also mentioned restricting between [edited by Anomalia for calorie specifics] calories, and I'd like you to know this is not a healthy place to be restricting at. It's important to try to find a balance between your restricting and your binging.
For instance, do you think you could try to wake up early enough to prepare a healthy breakfast for yourself, or make your own lunch that you would like? You can do one or the other, or both, it doesn't matter and whatever step you take would be a healthy step away from both of these problematic behaviors. I wish you the best of luck with your eating. :)
