unsure if i have b.e.d.? (new to this sorry)

I'm not diagnosed or anything so I don't know if this is the right place to post this, but I can't tell if I might have a binge eating disorder or not? I'm realizing as I write this that I definitely am concerned with my weight and my appearance, huh. I dislike my body, I eat basically whatever I can get my hands on (that doesn't take a lot of energy to make) within a span of an hour or two, I don't do any purging or heavy exercising, and I feel really, really, really bad whenever I eat anything (I hate eating in public and I'm only just now semi-comfortable eating around my best friend). I have some childhood trauma that led to my food issues, but I don't know if that's like an actual eating disorder or if I just had a very poor childhood and now my diet is all messed up. I don't know how to deal with this.