Genetic?
Recently I was talking to my cousin (my mother's sister's daughter) we were both drinking pretty heavily and she mentioned to me that my mom had been bulimic a while back. I've also been dealing with bulimia (not really very severely) and that mixed with the alcohol really freaked me out, I started sobbing and muttering which scared my cousin because she didn't know about my problems. I've never been particularly close with my mother but the genetic component really scared me because I didn't want to go down the same road and up until then I never really thought about it as a real issue. I think my cousin figured out why I was so upset because she started crying too and by the end of the night we were both a mess. The next day we didn't talk about it and I left not long after that to go home (she lives in a different country, I'll probably not see her again for several years). I'm not worried that she will tell anyone about it, but I had no idea about my mom and that really scares me. It's been bothering me for a while and I know I can't talk to my mom about it or really anyone because it's not that big of deal and I don't want to worry them. The genetic part of it scares me a lot though and I haven't been able to shake it. It's like finding out about that just clicked a switch and suddenly it's all so REAL and I just wish I could go back to before I knew.
@TheAwkwardGay
I could see how that would be scary for you to hear that there might be a geneteic componenet. I don't know that we can figure out whether there is a genetic piece to what is happening for you. But, the truth is that it doesn't really change how you approach the situation. Either way you would probably want to work on your relationship to food.
My mom or father didn't have it, but my cousin did. I'm sorry. That seems really scary to del with.
I can imagine how you feel, and I know this post is old, but maybe someone has the same thoughts as you had/have.
I've anorexia and my mother had it too. She nearly was becoming bulimic, but she "just stayed anorexic" and after she married my father, he helped her to come over this; some days she's still struggling, but who isn't struggling sometimes? At first I had anorexia, than I became bulimic, than they've said I would "just have" EDNOS now, a few years later I was bulimic again and now I just can say hi to Ana again.
There's a possible genetic part with eating disorders, you can research about it; but this genetic part doesn't mean you'll have it exactly in the same way and it doesn't mean your future kids will have it to for 100%, there'll be a higher inclination, but no more.