I eat too much
I eat a lot in a short period of time and then I just cry and feel bad about myself. I want a healthy relationship with food I hate feeling like this
I understand how you feel. I have issues with the same thing. Researching the science behind the hunger drive has helped me combat it. I go through cycles but I've been logging binge/purge/healthy eating cycles. high protein meals+big breakfasts (when I dont feel hungry at all) really seems to make a difference for me. Maybe through trial and error you'll be able to find somethings that can help you as well.
Heyy, I understand you. I felt that way too. Let me tell you this: you are good enough. You are perfect and you must keep on fighting. You will not reach a healthy relationship when you don't have a healthy relationship with yourself. Feel free to care for your soul. I know that it isn't that easy. I'm struggling too but I understand now that my mind must become healthy. Then my body, the way I feel and my relationship to food will get better. You need time. Lot's of time. But please don't give up.