It’s getting bad
Winter has always been difficult for me, especially when it comes to taking care of myself and my body. January and February have always been the most difficult months and they’ve reflected a lot on my eating and I’ve lost more than 5 kilograms in the last few weeks by not eating and making myself throw up after every meal I’ve eaten. I hate being in this state. It’s messed up my mental health and I’m so scared about hurting my partner and my best friends since all of them are sensitive people. It’s been around ever since I was younger. It’s getting bad again.
@melanchbutterfly
Certain seasons can definitely trigger eating disordered behaviors. It's understandable that you're feeling awful in this state, that's completely valid. You're going through a lot right now and these disordered behaviors have a big impact on your mental health! It sounds like you're scared of hurting your friends and partner; could that perhaps be a motivation to work towards getting better?
it definitely could be... i’m just scared i’ll mess up and i’m scared of all of them leaving and it’s all eating me up from the inside. i want to be a better friend and a better partner more than anything 🥺
