Cycling through different ED's?

Hi,

I'm new to online forums but came across this app hoping to meet people with similar experiences to feel not so alone.

Anyway, I have had severe eating disorders most of my life. As a child I was very overweight and consistently felt not enough because of it. As I grew older eating too much turn to not eating at all. This turned in bulimia with my weight ranging from 200+ and dropping to 100, all within a years time. This cycle has been happening for years. I have been hospitalized and officially diagnosed with Anorexia(purging type and non purge), bulimia(laxative purge) and EDNOS. I even suffered some related issues with my pregnancy. Every day I feel like my life is dictated by numbers, calories and the scale.

Most people think it only effects teens but I'm 26. And I see no end insight.

Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one with this cycle. Do any of you feel this way?