Disorderly Eating that could be Eating Disorder?
Hi,
I'm new to 7 Cups. I reached out because I am dealing with a lot of personal shite and I need to talk to people who understand on a personal level.
Early January 2021 is around the time I started noticing that It was getting more difficult to get myself to eat food (even when I wanted to) I talked to a clinician and they said it's definitely tied to anxiety. (my depression and ADHD don't help with this either)
It got progressively worse when I experienced a DV situation, and my stomach had a what felt like a pit for months, and I became underweight (I'm 6’0), and I was down to 136lbs.
Then I experienced a car accident and miscarriage within a couple months that followed.
It got somewhat better for awhile after things “settled”. But the issue with eating rose its ugly head again after some time.
I started stressing at work and my eating issues have progressed to the point where I would start gagging. (like if I had one bite too many according to my body.)
It's even gotten to the point where I tried to eat something- immediately gagged as soon as I tries to swallow (I could chew forever- gagging seems to be triggered by swallowing) and when I tried to swallow it and get it down I ended up puking it out anyway.
So frustrating!
No food ever sounds good to me these days. I can handle light stuff and liquids okay. Such as Apple sauce, protein shakes, etc.
I think I'm at the lowest point of all this. My issues with eating never have been worse. I can't sleep or eat. I'm stressed about not eating and sleeping.
I lost my job the other day due to poor performance caused by my mental illness. I kept falling behind, and unfortunately didn't get the supports I needed and asked for from my job.
Now I'm jobless on top of this.
Everything feels too overwhelming. I just want a break from my life.
So I'm not sure if anxiety-induced disorderly eating counts as a eating disorder or not. (p.s I don't have any body image issue or anything like that.
It's apparent to me that my issues with eating are psychosomatic.
Can anyone relate to this?
@LavenderCat06 Hi there, I'm sorry to hear about all that you're going through. It sounds like you're dealing with a lot of difficult situations, and it's taking a toll on your mental and physical health. It's great that you reached out for help and support, and 7 Cups is here for you. Eating difficulties tied to anxiety can indeed be considered as a form of eating disorder. You are not alone, and many people struggle with similar experiences. Please know that there is help available and recovery is possible. Don't hesitate to seek professional help from a therapist or medical provider. Take care.
