Fear of getting overweight

I was overweight for a couple of years ago

I suffered from bullying and sexual harassment because of it

But once I decided to go on a diet, I did it.

Now I'm not fat, not overweight, not full of fats as I was

So I became obsessed with my body and shape

I feel guilty whenever I eat, when I eat anything I regret doing it

I always fear of people saying that I'm overweight or hearing bullies out of nowhere because of my body

Now I hate my body and I want to do a healthy diet again but I don't know why I'm scared of FOOD.

*maybe it's confusing but sometimes I eat a little more than usual then I feel regret and start on hating my body all over again*

I don't know if It's an ED but I know that it's not ordinary.