How do I function?
I've been showing growing signs of having an eating disorder and I don't know how to manage it. I acknowledge that I feel hungry, but cannot act on it and I end up starving myself.
@Wolfspirit247 hey, apologies for no replies to this so far.
What you're going through sounds very difficult to manage. You feel hungry but can't act on the urge to consume food and end up starving yourself. How does that make you feel? How have you been been feeling overall lately? Anything that helps you cope? (Feel free to skip/answer any or all questions!)
We're here for you. <3 Looking forward to talking with you more. ^^
Thank you for taking the time to get back with me. :)
I don't like knowing that I'm being impacted by multiple factors, and realizing that I've actually had eating problems for longer than I'd believed. It fluctuates, so tracking it is difficult because I often don't even realize it's happening and when I do, I feel terrible for those around me. I mainly force myself to eat when I can to make sure I'm healthy enough to function in case of emergency and to prevent further family discourse over why I lose 20 lbs in a week or gain it back just as quickly. I grew up malnourished and never really learned how to have a balanced diet, so I often run on very little anyway with the occasional burst of overwhelming hunger. I became more aware of my eating issues after my ex tried to get me to gain excessive weight that I physically cannot reach due to genetics and personal choice. I'm becoming more body conscious and I've started hating myself for it. As far as coping, it's just reminding myself that I wasn't body conscious before and that I still need nutrition to survive. As much as I know it's not the best method, it's what I've managed to do for now.
@Wolfspirit247
Hi! Thank you for sharing.
Lots of love. <3