I am sixteen and really struggling with disordered eating patterns...

Hello... I am sixteen (male) and I have been really struggling with eating disorder behaviors over the past several months. I struggle with bingeing and restricting and I have a ton of negative thoughts and anxiety about food and eating. I am on my fourth day without bingeing today and I am still struggling with restricting and negative body image issues. I feel like I still need to lose more weight and this causes me to restrict my calories. I have also been using fasting and laxative abuse as a way to purge or try to compensate after I have binge eating episodes. I want to get back to having a healthy relationship with food and normal eating patterns like I was able to for the first fourteen years of my life. I am not in counseling and neither of my parents or any of my friends or family know about my disordered eating. Would there be anyone on here who would be willing to offer support or talk with me about this or anyone who has gone through a similar situation themselves? I have no one in my life who I can talk to about my anorexic behaviors and eating disorder problems and not being able to talk to anyone about this has been creating even more stress for me.