I don't know what's right and wrong anymore.

I'm Back online as this anonymous being. I've been trying to figure out what's right and what's wrong and how I can figure out if I have a problem or not. I feel alone with this issue that's occurred over time. My boyfriend knows but not everything, not the Hows? Why? or the Lies. I feel like it's easier to lie than be honest with anyone about my issue, I feel like it's just a phase. But I don't know I just wish people would allow me to deal with this on my own. Whether if it's by dropping weight until I realize that it won't get better or by forcing myself to get better because it's not what us teens do these days. I feel lost and alone and I wish there was someone who could help me through this. But I feel like everyone just wants me to be better. But nobody actually supports me. This is me...