I'm a bit confused(+venting)
Well I guess 2months ago I lost my appetite I started eating less sometimes a snack a day I used to feel so so hungry but seeing food or even thinking about it makes me feel disgusted and that lasted for a month then I went to a doctor he gave me some vitamins and iron compliments so I started eating 2 meals a day (small ones but better than nothing)
But recently I started to feel guilt and shame whenever I eat well (more than the small meals I used to eat) I'm underweight but so scared of gaining weight at the same time and ofc that makes me so annoyed cause everytime I'm done with eating I start thinking of the weight that I'll gain cause of that
Quick update
So ummm I'm eating more now😁 but the guilt and the shame is still annoying me😢 as an example I was eating dinner normally then boom I feel so disgusted from food and even chewing but I try to ignore that and sometimes force myself to eat cause I need that¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I guess I gained a kilo or two but guess what I want to loose that I'm fighting the urge to loose more weight cause even though I'm skinny and tired all time I'm still thinking that I'm looking fat(・_・;)