Want to be SICK again
This is so dumb. I hate being positive and trying to recover. It just makes me feel like a child. I feel like my "eating disorder" which wasn't even bad enough to ever warrant a diagnosis was the only thing that made me me. I can follow a meal plan, I can eat what I'm supposed to blah blah blah, but I am not myself, I don't even act or talk like myself when I'm in "recovery mode". I don't care, I just want to be sick again, I want to feel awful because at least I felt like myself.
@adventurousComputer9958 I am sorry your feeling not yourself,right now.
I hope things get better for you.
Maybe try talking to a listener here, at 7cups.
If your not into talking to a listener, that is ok.
7cups has support rooms, so maybe try them.
Hope this is helpful.
@Happy900
Thanks for responding.
Listeners indeed are not really my thing, but I do use the support rooms often.
I just wish there was an eating disorder support room open 24/7 but oh well.
