Want to stop eating! at least while people are around! help! I don't know what to do!!

Okay, so this is actually relaly hard for me, but i really dont know what to do. I have been having issues with my eating for quite a while and it got to the point i was starting to loose weight and became a lot iller. I have been improving slowly and my parent force me to eat at home, but i cant eat when others are around i feel like i am consistantly judged that they can see me getting fatter, i really really dont know if anyone else feels like this. I also am struggling when trying to eat at school because i need to for my physical health because of this. I get sever panic attacks feel ill and sick and not want to eat. Lately i have been able to fight the feeling of forcing myself not to eat but they are getting strong and some days it is so overwhelming i dont know what to do. does anyone relate? or am i alone?