What is Your ED Story?
Share your eating disorder story
Say as little or as much as you wish. This is a judgement-free zone dedicated to you. Vent and express yourself, no matter what stage you are at, whether you are new to the Eating Disorder community or in recovery, your voice deserves to be heard. Use this space to share your personal experiences with either your individual struggles with Eating Disorder's or the struggles of someone you know and how it has influenced you.
Be kind, supportive and provide viewers with trigger warnings when necessary. Refrain from stating triggering numbers - calorie intake, weight, weight loss, bmi, body mass etc.
About four years ago I began wanting to lose weight and wasn't sure why. For the first few years when I was about 12-15, I went through different phases of eating; one month I would eat normally but feel extremely guilty about it, and the next month I would eat virtually nothing and exercise a lot. It repeated in this cycle for ages and no weight loss or gain was noticeable because as soon as I lost the weight- I gained it straight back. I was never sure if this was an eating disorder or not but it got progressively worse to where I am today at 16. I began to eat very little in an attempt to lose weight and it has been getting worse as I have many exams coming up and a lot of school stress/anxiety. Although I recognise it is unhealthy-I can't overcome how I feel about myself. However every month or so, I will have a week where, like in previous years, I would eat normally but feel very guilty and exercise a lot after, then almost starve for the other three weeks-only slowly losing weight. I've never told anyone as I didn't feel it was necessary because there are some times when I do eat!
@DiamondLight33
You seem to be experiencing EDNOS - now I can't diagnose you for sure, but it's worth talking to a doctor about. These eating habits and mindsets are not healthy and can drastically worsen over time. You can visit this article to find out more information about EDNOS. Don't keep it to yourself. It's important to get support and seek help. You are worth more than this, food is not the enemy and you are not going to be controlled by it.
