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Triggering Warning: [edited by 24Help1 5/24/20]

ive been developing a eating disorder forever now. i remember in 4th or 5th grade being obsessed with how my body looked and doing multiple exercises. its its go worse throughout the years. i used to workout excessively throughout middle school. i would do stomach workouts all day and would push myself so hard and still be unsatisfied. im now going into 11th grade and trying to stick to diets and try to not eat as much. sometimes i go all day without eating. but then at night i binge eat because im so hungry and then i feel super bad about myself and really fat. everytime after i eat i always look at myself and i swear i look bigger than i do. it makes me really sad but i can't stop obsessing over my body. i just dont know what to do. when i eat junk food i force myself to not eat the next day. can somebody give me tips and help me?