English isn’t my first language sorry if there’s any mistakes
i was always fat and always thought about losing weight and doing water fast and stuff but i never really committed to it and when i did it was awful i was 90 kg and now i am 79 in less than three weeks i was happy about it until i started forcing my self to throw up or over work my self with exercise i dont want to do that but every time i ate anything i feel like something is forcing me to throw it up even tho i dont want to and now i am scared of eating because i hate throwing up and its so so tiring i am myself worst fear literally
@considerateCranberry3275
Sorry to hear that....I feel every word you wrote and all the pain and fear you're going through. It's such a terrifying and exhausting feeling to not have control over your body or your actions. I know how heavy that is on your heart but I want you to know that your fear and anxiety about food are a natural reaction to all this exhaustion and harshness. You are not a bad person or unworthy in any way. You are a person going through a very difficult and painful situation and your being here and writing about it is the greatest proof of your strength and your desire to heal. You deserve to eat the food you love you deserve to live your life without fear or anxiety and you deserve all the support and love in the world ✨✨🙏
I know how u feel I too hate throwing up it is very painful
