I'm back to this again
Yes I'm back to this sh*t again. I'm not exactly sure what kind of ED I have, bc I have been recovering and now I have gotten like really big. I never wanted to look like this, and my meds makes me hungry and gain weight even easier.
So I'm back to starving. That's the only way I know honestly. I'm currently overweight, so doctors sees any form of me "not eating" or "eating less" as good and healthy, which I know it isn't. I just can't bare getting fatter and fatter. I have never been this big. Since I went on recovery I have gained ** to ** kg, and I am now in the tribble diget area. I hate it.
I just wanna starve and get skinny :S
@TheMadHatterWasHere
Hi,
My name is Waves, thank you for making this post.
It's okay to be back here, recovery isn't linear, and it's okay to have ups and downs. It's okay that you're not exactly sure what kind of ED you have. They are all as important as each other.
A person's weight does not equal an eating disorder. ED are just as important no matter the weight of a person, I am sorry you had that experience with a medical professional. You did not deserve that. You are important, and your feelings are valid.
Your weight does not equal your value. Your worth does not come from your looks or body but I know that can be easier said than done. Often we can be our own worst critique.
What is something nice someone else has said about you?
You mentioned that you have been recovering I was wondering how your recovery has been going recently?
Waves ❤️
@CalmWaves3939
I think I have atypical anorexia. When I went into recovery I gained so much weight, which is why I stopped recovering. I don’t wanna look like this being overweight :S
So I decided that if I can’t recover without getting fat then I don’t wanna recover. And yes I’m actually overweight, it’s not just something I’m saying.
@TheMadHatterWasHere
I completely understand what you mean, I'm actually in the same boat. I recovered a while ago but last year fell out of recovery because I realized just how big I had gotten, like I was at my biggest size ever. (High triple digits) & I know what it feels like when don't seem to care with how little or much we eat because of being technically overweight. It's really rough & I'm currently struggling with my ED now.
I know I'm new here & not 100% sure how this app works but you can feel free to dm me so at least you'll have some support. Since I can understand your struggles, maybe we can even help each other out who knows.
But just know, I know it's super stressful & rough to deal with but starving is definitely not the answer, I know it seems easier that way but it's honestly a lot harder than eating correctly.
With that said again feel free to dm me!
Take care of yourself, don't give up❤️