I relapsed, i’m not sure if I can get better

I’ve been clean from throwing up for 6 months and returned to some kind of normalcy with my eating habits. I bought a pasta bowl and a shortbread for lunch, and a small bag of brownies to take home, my coworker looks at what i’m buying and asks “Hungry?” another joked that I was eating my feelings and when they saw what I was buying said “Jesus, you are eating your feelings”

I should have ignored it, I really tried to not think about it but I got about halfway through the pasta bowl and I couldn’t hold it anymore, it felt like there was something foreign in my stomach, so I threw it up. 6 months of progress just gone because I couldn’t handle a few comments.

The worst part is that I felt proud after I did it. I haven’t had a real meal since and I don’t know if i’m strong enough to recover again. I’m doing this completely on my own and I don’t know what else to do, i’m too ashamed to reach out for help because I feel like i’m not skinny enough to have it be a real problem.