ZERO self control

i don't know why i do this... i can promise to never eat again, but as soon as there's a plate of food in front of me, i start binging like crazy. i eat huge portions and even get seconds... my mom used to feed me insane amounts (>1000 cal per meal, but it was because i kept asking for larger sizes), but now i live away from home so i can control my own food. but even now, after i finish eating, ill be tempted to walk all the way to the store again to buy more food to eat... which feels so weird, because i genuinely feel blinded by food for like an hour or two after eating it...