binge eating

hi its my first time ever writing on this platform i have been struggling with binge eating since last year. Its started after an exam period i had realised that i put on weight since i had been studying all day and stopped going to my sports. I had gain a couple kg and i just freaked i got scared so i started to not eat to loose weight which became horrible i stopped eating at lunch even tho i was starving i started over exercises walking hours on the threadmill i was exhausted but then logically by the end of the week and was famished which is when i started binge eating and it went on for weeks i starved for the whole week over exercised and when it got to the weekend i just binged i felt powerless like all i did all week was useless and stopped losing weigh. So i decide to eat normally again. I was vevy strict on the portion i couted evry calories but i ate then it was summer time i took a plane to go back to france i told my self that i would not control anything for the fisrt day in paris i just wanted to enjoy but at the end of the day i just felt this immense hunger and i binged and i strted binge eztaing everyday i had bought luxative thinkinh that it cancelled at the things i ate i walked almost 30000 steps evryday so my weigt didnt move so much even tho i binged every night. The whole summer was like that i couyld go a week eatring normally then i would just binged then it was the end of the summer and i wanted rto loose weight so i ate one meal a day for about three to four days i lost a bif amount of weight but i still didnt feel skinny ebought then i went back to where i lived and strated schpol and i just kept going no food all day and binged on the weekends during week days i had a hige aounf of sport so i was exausted it was horrible until my parenst noticed i stopped eating they hadent realised i lost weight they just siad i needed to start eating healthy again   so i did i ate good but then i got to friday night naz di binged i felt so bad confused i was eating i didnt jbow what was wrong sure i still controlled evrything but i ate an now its been a month and i binge every weekebnd fridya and saturday evening its horrible i stopped hanging cuase i feel bloated all rthe time i want help