introduction

hey, sorry if this isn't how this works, but i mean. hi. uh, my name's cain, they/them, i've got a pretty bad restrictive eating disorder and have for like. a super long time i dont know. its a matter of degrees i guess? was doing better for a while but it's been godawful this year. i don't have a lot of friends, ive got two, but they're worried about me. my family kind of encourages it.,,, i feel like i dont know what im supposed to be doing. i dont recognize myself and i just feel so stuck. im trying to do better but its hard and i dont even know if i want to. i dont know. i dont ever have any positive energy. i feel so,,, decayed, idk. id like to not feel like this all the time. i dunno. i also dont know how this works at all. i dunno. hi.