Gotta get out of this

I just LOVE being put down and Insulted. If it's not my boyfriend,it's Kim. It's always Someone. I've heard it my whole life. I'm worthless, stupid, lazy, and selfish. And I'll never amount to anything.Good thing we're going to Syracuse to get registered with dss there. And possibly getting a hotel.

I didn't get a lot of sleep and had to get up at nine. I was stressed, in pain, and didn't feel good. I had about five hours of sleep. I'm in pain right now and can't take anything for it. I'm also really tired. Yesterday and the day before was stressful. My boyfriend wasn't at Kim's with me and Hayden and tree kept coming back. I was forced to deal with him because Kim is in no shape to get around so I had to get the door for him. And he kept talking to me. He threw a sandal at me when I was trying to sleep just to ask me if I wanted a hot pocket. Ryan might not be coming back. That's cool with me. Yesterday Kim was having a meltdown screaming and crying because of her pain, that no one cares about her,and that she's dying. Because she asked several people to help her get to St. Joes in Syracuse and no one wants to be bothered. I had to stay and house sit because she thought she was going to urgent care. But she ended up coming back to her room because someone told her everyone in her room has to go. She wanted me to not get kicked out. So I stayed behind. Also she was in no shape to answer the door so I had to. My boyfriend finally got here and things were better but I still had a bad day. I was in pain, exhausted, and unwell.I had to reschedule today's interview since I'm going to Syracuse with my boyfriend to stay in a hotelwe just missed every bus that we could take to get there early, and now we have to go back, because now we can't get to SyracuseAnd it's my fault because I'm too slow and can't runSorry I wasn't in track and field like my exI got attacked because of my boyfriend and whoever bravo is.

Because neither of them could clean up after themselves.

My stuff is ALWAYS over by me.And she sat there harassing me and making fun of my insecurities. She sounds like my abusers.The same narcissistic attitude.The same everyone owes me something attitude.