To Friday

I wish I could speak to you. I wish you had let me be myself.let me be the coward I am sometimes instead of expecting a warrior . I wish you could have said that it's okay...it okay to be scared , it's okay to fall , it's okay to weep. But that's too much to ask for isn't it ? I must be a strong and steady person always, shouldn't i ? I wish you would once notice what it it has done to me . I wish I could cry without being judged advised or blamed. I came for peace. But something else awaited me. I now realise that I was never healed. I was just trying to ignore that I was broken. What a marvelous idiot am I. I want to stop all this.