01/02/21 9:44pm
Feeling extremely anxious, chest is tightening and hurting, I feel totally exhausted and like crap, heart is beating slightly harder than normal, I keep thinking of the one I lost, I wish I could sleep, I miss the one I lost, my mind is racing with thoughts, I’m having trouble getting rid of triggering gifts from the one I lost..
hey @Brody99!
sounds like a diary entry. is your panic attack over? its so painful! i hope you're feeling better now.
you are being triggered by a ended relationship? when you are feeling okay and in a happier state, try to go back and think about ideas to help you get out of the thoughts about this relationship. many times starting a new relationship can help you forget about old ones. or maybe throwing out all the stuff and anything reminding you about that person. or try viewing this event in a positive light. what are some gains from this relationship? have you learned how to do things next time? did it give you happiness during the time you were together?
keep us posted, 😍 Jo
Yes Jo, I have never worked on myself mentally and have always put everybody above myself and I feel that I have been let down and given up on by everybody.. I am doing this for be now and trying to write out how I feel when I start to have attack to just get it out since I have nobody to talk to in real life.. I had a relationship of 6 years end and I lost my best friend/girlfriend because they said I was too needy with my mental health issues.. They were what I was relying on to keep my head above the water for so long and I feel so lost and empty even though she wasn’t always the nicest.. I feel like I have gained some self awareness from all of this and I know how I can’t rely on anybody for my happiness now but it hurts so bad.. She was a wonderful woman and always had my back, I just can’t believe she’s gone and I’m having a very hard time coping and throwing things away even though I’m sure she had no problem... it’s been 6 years of every day talking and now they blocked me and changed their number because they said they couldn’t help me.. This has hurt me more than anything because I felt like I couldn’t talk to anybody to begin with, now I’m afraid to.. Thank you Joe..
@Brody99, i dont want to know what youre going through because it is so hard. 6 years is a very long time. and you dont have anybody else, which is unimaginably painful!!! i dont know what to say. i am also needy, and always wonder if people are getting annoyed from my neediness.
the worst feeling when feeling depressed, is knowing that nobody will ever be able to make you happy. knowing that you are the only one that can do that, but feeling so hopeless and giving up on that possibility. and this is the worst part of anxiety or depression. feeling like you'll suffer from this your whole life and never get better.
but we all can get better! there are many people that said they will do whatever it takes to get well and they did!!! you have to know that it is possible to have a better life, to be happy. but you have to work on it!
every day i make a conscious decision to remain happy. that nobody and nothing can make me miserable. im not made out of iron. but im trying. the worst thing is to give up. please promise me that youll try? please?
😍 jo
Absolutely, I have been posting/logging every time I break down since I don’t have a good sense of what’s triggering me or any good coping skills really.. This has really helped me look from the outside and look back at where I came from as well. I feel like every second something bad is happening to me even if there is nothing happening at all when I’m missing her.. everything hurts but I’m trying my best, thank you for sharing some with me and being very courteous and kind! 💙