01/03/21 5:59am
Woke up around 4am having night terrors but have calmed since. Can’t focus on going back to sleep. Feeling anxiety build up again. I can’t stop thinking about her and how she’s not here anymore.. I can’t sleep because I miss her here.. I am having a hard time getting rid of things because it would hurt more to throw it all away.. My mind is very conflicted and I feel lost.. I can’t believe this is actually happening.. I keep wanting to message them but I know I won’t get a response and it’s only going to make me worse.. Unmotivated to start my day and I feeling sick to my stomach..
Very anxious now, not sure why.. I felt calm before it hit, no triggers around and I’m not feeling “bad” but I am a little distressed because I am tired of feeling this way. Procrastinating getting ready for work..
