1/21/16

So far so good today.

I worked out a little while today. Definitely needed it. I feel a lot better.

I finally relapsed on my Nofap streak. It was about 14-15 days I think. I figured it was going to happen soon. I'm not upset about it. I'm actually kind of glad because I didn't use any kind of porn, regardless of type. I had dug into a couple of fetishes, and those had been my main source for a while, but I'm proud of myself for not using them.

My mother had surgery recently, so my grandmother came down to help me and my dad around while she recovers. It's been nice. I baked last night and had a couple of drinks, and I enjoyed myself. It's been nice having her here.

But today I kind of hit a wall. My grandmother and my grandfather are both devout Catholics. As far as I'm concerned, I'm agnostic. I'm just not interested in religion. We kind of butted heads a little, when she asked me to go to church with her, but since I don't like going, I was honest and said I didn't want to, but would go if she wanted.

I reminded her later, and she said "well do you want to go?" I said no. She got a little angry and told me to forget about it. Maybe it wasn't the right thing to say on my part, but it kind of irritated me a little. Why is it hard for her to understand that I'm not a religious person? I just don't like going. My dad is the same way. Neither of us really care.

I don't know how I should feel about this. I guess I'll just forget about it and go forward. I'm not a religious person, and I don't see myself changing right now.