2-3-16

It came back again.

The thoughts of lonliness and inadequacy. The feelings that I'm not good enough to be with someone, much less someone's friend.

In a previous post I made, I talked about a girl that I met that I liked talking to. I asked her if she ever wanted to hang out, I offered my number, etc. She said yes, but I'm guessing I came on a little too strong. I asked if she wanted to go to the gardens today. She said no.

It's probably my fault. I probably was too shy or I was anxious. I'm probably just overthinking this like every other f***ing thing that goes wrong. She's probably just busy, and I'm too much inside my head to see logic.

I feel like I took this too hard and personally. I feel inadequate. I feel alone. Again. I tried for once, I actually tried to be social and put myself out there, and I just feel foolish.

I hope this passes soon. I hate feeling like this.