A diary I guess
I don't care if know one sees or reads any of this. I just need a place to vent at when I feel I can't too anyone in real life. It's not like I don't have support as I know I have many people that care about me and I know I can talk to them but it's hard to at times as I feel like I'm a burden on them.
Anyway I probably won't post on this everyday as I might forget or just not feel up to it. I have general anxiety disorder and social anxiety so I tend to stress out alot and comunicating with people above me e.g a tutor in my college, or people I have never met or don't really talk to often can be incredibly hard for me.
Anyway, enough ramblings I'm just here to let off steam. Everyone is welcome to talk and let of steam too if needed (I'll try and help if I can lol).
@DeadlyJazzhands
Might aswell post my first entry.
Date:12/11/19
This evening I've just been unnecessarily frustrated and angry and was just feeling sad a few minutes ago. My brain is doing whatever it wants I think it's just because I'm just stressed and overwork from catching up on college. For some reason while I was angry I was just mad at a friend that I'd just reconnected with after a long and messy argument which left us fell out and not talking for about a year or so. I think a part of me isn't really over everything that happened even after a whole year but I'm just not sure.
@DeadlyJazzhands,
Im sorry college is overwhelming right now. Im a college student too, Im taking more classes than I ever have before in my college career, and I feel like Im drowning. Whats your major? Im in love with your username! Im a Musical Theatre major
@LauraB1996
I'm currently doing I.T and I want to go to university to do games art. I'm really behind at the moment as a family emergency happened and we are only now getting back to normal slowly but surely. and thanks I love listening to music it helps me alot when I'm stressed :) .
@DeadlyJazzhands
thats cool! Im sorry about your family emergency, and I hope youre doing ok now. Hows your friend? The one that you were annoyed with last night?
@LauraB1996
I'm getting there just trying to catch up on work now. and that friend is also stressing over work, alot happened between us and it kind of messed with me mentally and we have made amends now but I think it still effects me sometimes.
@DeadlyJazzhands
Date: 14/11/19
Yesterday was boring so I didn't feel the need to write anything sorry. :P
Today was kinda eventful I guess, I've been getting headaches which I think is due to stress which doesn't surprise me, I'm going to try and ring the doctors tommorrow. Even though I've been stressed today I've had fun as I went on a trip to a university nearby. We got to do some fun games stuff like designing a car and a game level. We were also able to play some beat saber on VR before having to go back to class. I'm super tired as always so I'm going to try some multivitamins and see if it will help.
