Apple's Box

Emptiness - TW

When I heard another friend had finished his journey here, my first thought was... *alright, not long anymore before it's my time to go*

It wasn't a sad thought. It wasn't fear.

Life is challenging

Life is tiring

There's happiness in there

And in the end it's always fair

I'm wishing for a lot of things

To fly I need a pair of wings

To love I need more than just flings

Gosh... just some peace and lots of grins

about love: The hardest part of loving you is to love you the way you want me to. I wish I can tell differently, but that would be dismiss the point of writing this. I can love. I just don't know how to be in love. I know how to love you, but I don't know how to fall for you. Your love has been given me strength, for that I'll love you sincerely. You're a convenient. A routine.

Today's Worries Dump

Another hit. Just when I thought everything is finally okay. I was just enjoying a calm life when another storm came hitting the shore again.

I don't know what's happening, but life feels more tougher lately. There's not much room to breathe. Strange... what to do... what will come next... exhausted.

Not to mention the situation in the world. Wars. Viruses. Hatred and fears. When will we realise that we're destroying ourselves? When we stop forcing what we want to others? When will we accept differences as a beauty?

I am not allowed to talk to any male unless during working hours or if there's a valid reason. And just friendshp is not for him. Actually, I am not even allowed to be here.

Sometimes I feel like I'm living in a nice comfortable castle surrounded by electric see-through walls. It's all peachy as long as I'm not trying to escape. My guard doesn't know that I'm talking to people outside the walls whenever he's not around. And then back living in oblivion where only him shall matter

Am I a cheater? Is this even real? How did I get myself into this place?