Dear ______,

Dear _______,

We finally had a real conversation after such a long time and I wished it wasn't an argument. I'm sorry, I know I say some really mean things but it's the only way I can get you to talk to me. I can feel that we are drifting apart and I don't know how to stop it. Every time I try to address it, it's always the same excuse and I'm getting tired of it.

Dear _______,

Talking to you confuses me. Makes living here even harder than I thought it was before. You're what is causing a fork in my road. I like talking to you but you are making me feel things I am afraid of.

Dear 1 and 2,

You kept our relationships a secret. It killed me every second when I saw you with her and with him. I still loved you though it all and I will always have a place in my heart for you. I hope everything y'all go though is better then the pain then you put me though.

1: You broke me in many pieces. I'm still broken, but I still find a way to survive. You tore my heart out and basically took a shredder to it.

2: After she did that to me, you just decided to make it worst. You saw everything she did to me, and yet you broke me more. You broke more then my heart; my spirit, and my soul.

I gave everything I had to you guys. Then you returned the favor by hurting my heart and my life.

From,

the one forever in pain

Dear ______,

I don't know what is wrong with you, I've spent god-knows how many hours trying to find symptoms that match what you're doing and the only conclusion I can reach is that you care more about getting in the last word than the relationship. You go from this loving woman who adores me and then switch to a sulking, sarcastic, irrational bitch whenever I don't spend every waking minute around you. If you don't want to join me going to OUR friends the one time a week we see them, then that is your call. But you have no right to hold it against me, they have been around since long before you came into the picture. It's time to grow up, you're 29 for God's sake! Stop throwing tantrums like a little brat! I've spent nearly a decade working on my anger problem and gotten it down to pat, all by myself I might add, and you being unreasonable is starting to boil it up very quickly. I've never in my 32 years been accused of spending too little time with my partners or not making them feel special, and I spend more time with you than I have ever spent with anyone in my past, and that includes friends who are so close they might as well be brothers. I've never hit a woman in my life either, but when you fail to appreciate my efforts and act out, then have the gall to try and make it out like I am the one in the wrong, it makes me want to kill you! It makes me want to choke you to death! You are turning me into something that I am not, and I am tired of it. The only reason I've stuck around this long is because we seem like such a good match, neither of us want children, we both love animals, we like the same sport, the same music (which is a rare find), We can talk for hours about nothing at all or anything at all. God damn you for making me love you, fool that I am. The way you push me into anger makes none of it seem worth it. So you had an abusive ex? I've been supportive, protective, but I will NOT pay for his mistakes!

This will sound like the worst thing anyone can say, but I'm starting to get a picture of why your ex was abusive, other than him being an asshole. Had I been a lesser man, I might have done the same. I think it's time to end it, despite all I hoped could go right, despite numerous conversations to fix and fine tune the relationship, despite giving you every avenue of communication at any time to tell me if something is bothering you, you choose to handle it like this? Disdain is not something I've ever shown you, and I will not accept it from you either! So this is where it ends, I guess. I'm getting off of this rollercoaster before you turn me into the angry bastard I was or a man who now hits women. I hope you remember or take all of this at heart to at least evaluate, so you don't make the same mistakes in your next relationship. Maybe one day you'll realize what you've thrown away, unfortunately by then it will be too late. Like it is now.

Dear ________,

This time apart really sucks for me too. As much as I want to call you and see you, I'm trying my best not to give in because it's what you wanted. I hope you use this time to heal, and sort everything in your head. Although, I'm afraid this time apart is only fueling the negativity and anger in you. You're better than this. I hope you fight it. I love you.

Dear ________,

This time apart really sucks for me too. As much as I want to call you and see you, I'm trying my best not to give in because it's what you wanted. I hope you use this time to heal, and sort everything in your head. Although, I'm afraid this time apart is only fueling the negativity and anger in you. You're better than this. I hope you fight it. I love you.

Dear_______,

I'm sorry for not being the perfect person you want me to be. I'm sorry for wanting my sister to not be like me and let her do things that normal teens do. I'm sorry for disappointing you when all you want me to do s to succeed. I'm sorry for caring about my future and that i try to do things that are out of my comfort zone but i can't do anything about it. I'm sorry for not having your trust but i can't fix that easily because you don't have mine either. I'm sorry for trying to leave but you have to understand that there are times when i don't even want to be near you because your the reason i get stressed out. One day i will leave but i will come back and hopefully things will be different.

Dear ______,

I understand you're older, wiser, and going off to new places soon. I'm sad I'm never going to say "I love you" or even "I like you.a lot"

Your smile makes my day, and if I look at you, I don't understand and I'll be confused and just break down and cry. I can't grasp the fact you'll leave me, and you'll find another girl better than me.

I'm truly scared. I'm confused. But strangely, I've tried moving on. Too late though, I've sunk into the hole already.

dear -------- sorry I stole your floor mat 😞

Dear ______, For a moment I let myself think that I'd found my forever. I know it sounds silly but you were everything I wanted. You felt it too. I remember our conversations about marriage and the future. It tore me apart when we broke up but then, for you to start dating _____ made me wish I had died. I don't hold you responsible and I don't really miss you. I miss the idea of you. The feeling of being saved from ______ and just being completely happy. Having you and ripped out from under me and everything else that happened that year, at the same time, all but killed me. Sometimes I wish it had. Then I wouldn't have been left to torture myself. I've never felt the same spark since you and after all these years I'm beginning to wonder if I ever will. After all, I haven't felt safe with anyone since but then again, maybe that's ______ fault. Thank you for saving me.