Degrading

My older brother is degrading to be around. Whenever Im around him he constantly starts shit or annoys me. When I ignore him hell scream and turn up his sexist or racist videos up. If I leave hell follow me. He constantly weasels his way out, unsuccessfully, through an argument that always ends with him rambling even after Ive left. I want to move out, but I feel pressure from my parents not to and I dont want to leave my sister in the house with toxic people. Im really tired because all the people outside of my house cant comprehend it and constantly belittle how bad my situation is.

So I bottle it up and when I blow up its horrible. I want to express myself more but whenever I do I get in trouble for it and theres little reward for it. I wish my brother would leave me the fuck alone.