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Hi! I've got, a hell of a lot happening at the moment. But it's always been that way. There's always something happening and no times to stop and analyse what has happened. I'm waiting for it all to stop, to slow down to atleast allow me to look at what is hurting most, but as of right now, it's a mess. It's a scribble on paper and a wave in an ocean. I can't get a grip on anything, I can't catch any thoughts and I feel like my brain is cracking. I don't know where I stand anymore or how to move forward, I only know to keep going, sometimes forced by apathy and other times by fear.