I Can't Take It Anymore
You people have any idea what damage has been placed upon me. I come to a hault to this [edited by forum mentor for cursing] website and whether in 1-1's, or group chats people on here always find some excuse to attack me. Saying I make it all about me when little do they know I'm [edited for cursing] legitimately hurt. When I say I cut myself? I have cut myself. There is nights where I get bashed and for every little insult, for every time I get ridiculed by a member, listener, or a moderator equals a drop of blood. I'm tired of trying to help myself and get shit on for trying. I get nowhere. Same results everywhere I look. Whether here, a crisis chat, hotlines, professionals ect. you name it! Maybe I don't belong in this world. Well [edited for cursing] it all. I guess all the trauma I've been through means nothing and it has nothing to do with self-pity, or guilt trip, or making a situation all about me, but it's like others preach and that is I'm only human too. Well consider I'm not once my existence is erased. No one will care anyway's. Go ahead and hurt me more if you have to. Stick a dagger in me. I get hurt no matter what. It's a never ending pattern and sh*t just starts ups again. I can't help it I have an attitude. I was given no love coming up. I witnessed a lot of death & violence since I was only the age of 10 years old. I wasn't given no hug, or an outlet. I had no time to grieve or look up to the sky and ask "why me?". My current situation? It's no better. I have nothing to my name. Most people have something, or somebody in their lives that motivates them, but I don't have that honors, or luxury. I'm sorry I'm [edited for cursing] up. I'm sorry for all those that misunderstood me. I hurt myself from day to night and I'm running out of time. I toy around the thought of dying a third time as I already have twice in my life. One at the age of 17 and the other at the age of 21. Nobody cares about me. I don't even care about myself to be truthful. Nothing to love about me and my life span. I guess when I die it will be a relief from this community. It will bring happiness and people will say "Well it's about time he killed himself". You people take care and have a nice life. For those that hurt me on 7cups? You know who you are and [edited for cursing]! Maybe one day you'll see the damage you contributed, but then again it doesn't occur to those people. They're all in it for themselves. I don't need help anymore I need a permanent dirt nap.
Hi floodedcrissis, I just made this account in hopes I can be of some help. Let's talk this out, I want to help you :]
Why bother helping me? [Edited for triggering content.]
Why not help you? You want you voice to be heard, you want some to not hurt you but to help you. I want to be that person. Even if your mind is already made up. I still want to just talk to you, making sure you know that there are other people in this world that understand and are here for you. :)
Don't say that! Nobody is here for me...
Just forget about me!!
Too late. I won't forget about you! I will remember the name floodedcrissis that called out for help and no one answered but me! I don't care what other people have said or done. That isn't why I am here, to apologize for them. Forget about them. Tall to me, I am here now!
I'm not worthy of anyone's time
Of course you are. If we weren't helping people, we all would probably be depressed by our problems. You are important
Stop lying! I'm nobody important and nobody is depressed by not helping me. People don't ever take me serious which is sad because I've been through a lot and none of it will ever change. I can't even find the courage to change it myself. It can never be fixed!
Well I am giving you my time. I am here and able and willing to help. Listen to me and understand that there is at least one person on this planet that is willing to hear what you have to say!
I've done told you and for anyone that reads this. I'm done! If only anyone would know or see it for themselves, but nobody is there for me and never was and never will be!
So do I mean nothing to you? Am I below you? Would you not give me the time of day? What did I do that makes me the bad guy?
Just like everybody else....
You still don't get it do you? How is this helping? How am I making you the bad guy? You know what? [edited for cursing] too!
Things will get better. I guarantee it. Just let life go on
Says the [edited for cursing] who has a damn clue about me and how I coped thus far. It gets better? Nah it only reamins worse no matter how hard I try.
[edited for cursing] me with what? How hard? For a long time or short time?
Well if you would talk to me rather than dismiss me I could help.. But I'm sorry if you now don't want me to post here anymore.
exactly that's all you do is [edited for cursing] around. asking me how hard? or how long? [edited for cursing] get real...
you know what the [edited for cursing] I meant. that wasn't even remotely funny, but that's you the typical [edited for cursing] person that has a smart [edited for cursing] response. how does that help in times like these? how are you helping?! easy...YOU'RE NOT!
I'm helping you by not letting you leave this world. By keep posting and talking and let your emotions come out.
Really? because that can be arranged you [edited for cursing]!
[edited for cursing] you and everyone else...
Pick a number 1 - 10. The number you pick will determine what happens next.
There are a lot of people on this site/app who would gladly welcome your kindness and support. Please don't waste anymore of your time on this thread :)
Nobody gives a [edited for cursing] on this site. this app is a joke and so is life.
Me? :o
@LittleFerret yep I was talking to you :)
Ok will do! Thanks for the advice. Still new to the site. :)
Hey FloodedCrissis, wanna talk buddy? I just want to help you so I've come back if you need to say anything or if you need help.
I got nothing to say anymore
close this [edited for cursing] forum. I'm done with 7cups of lies and this [edited for cursing] community. [edited for triggering content].
Well... That sucks. But I wish you the best of luck on the next 10 years of your life. Take care :)
No such thing is luck
Then make your own luck!
Are you ok? Im so sorry that things have been so hard for you. That everyone seems to not care. But its not true. I care. And i know that there are a lot of other listeners out there that do too. *hugs*
No I'm not okay! [edited for triggering content] Does that sound okay to you? But here I am on [edited for cursing] 7cups. [edited for triggering content]. Everybody is a typical [edited for cursing] towards me on here and wonder why I'm [edited for cursing] set off.
Im sorry. Im sorry for everything that was said that made you angry, that hurt you. But please dont harm yourself anymore!
Why are you sorry? I' should be sorry I'm still alive...
If theres nothing i can say to prove it to you that i actually care and that the listeners on this site care. Know this, some of the people that you least expect to be touched and to care about you, care about you. If theres no way i can convince you of that I hope you find happiness, i hope your anger subsides and that despair disintegrates and that you have a wonderful life without ever having to worry or even become stressed again. ...
@FloodedCrissis -- It sounds like you're going through a lot right now. Please feel free to connect to a listener (https://www.7cups.com/BrowseListeners/). You can also contact suicide hotlines www.suicide.org and www.imalive.org. You are worth the time and attention of others to get help. Please reach out to these programs for help.
you don't know a damn thing about me. why don't you grow up and stop being a [edited for cursing] typical wise [edited for cursing] and experience some real [edited for cursing] pain instead kidding around.
Laughing is the best medicine. You need some light in the dark life you have.
you don't know [edited for cursing] about my life. [edited for cursing] off! you make things worse.
to laugh at someone suffering? that really shows your true colors...
I said nothing about laughing at you. No need to twist words to fit your rage.
Have you ever seen rage? I don't think you know rage. You might think you do, but until you see me in real life face to face? this is as far as you're going to get and [edited for threatening content] because with all the [edited for cursing] you're saying to me? I won't even begin to describe [edited for threatening content]..
Not very nice to threaten people. Someone could get in trouble
@FloodedCrissis -- I understand that you are angry and are struggling but please do not make threatening comments toward others on the site. Post was edited to remove threatening content.
But then again. We won't ever because you're some typical troll from across the world and I'll be dead. The fact you laugh at someone's pain? You have no heart.
But that's okay because neither do I and I don't give a [edited for cursing] what you gotta say to me from here on out.
I'm sorry if you don't want to talk but please there are people who just want you to be happy again. It may not seem possible and this may not be what you want to hear but I care. I've come back every day for you because I want you to get well. Please don't leave because I'm not going anywhere.
wy do you come back? who gives [edited for cursing] a about me?
I give a [edited for cursing] about you because I don't want you to have to stay unhappy and angry forever. You probably don't believe me but I am here for you and I will do everything I can to help you. Is there anything you would like to talk about because I will listen.
There's a reason why I am. You know my history. I told you in plenty of forums. Well that [edited for cursing] will never change. Every where I go? I'm always into something. I can't help it I have [edited for threatening content] and the urge [edited for threatening content]. That's all I ever known was death. [edited for triggering content].
I have heard your story and I'm grateful that you've told me about yourself. I'm truly sorry for the things that have happened in your past. I can never understand what you have gone through but I would love to help you with this. I don't expect you to move past all of this and your violent tendencies because you can't erase the past but I do want to help you make the future better. I can try to get you help or I can try to help you myself. All I want is the best for you. Do you want to let me help you with that?
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Oh what a year this has been. I'm past the point of caring about anyone else right now. It used to t he the one thing that kept me going thinking about family but honestly it hurts them just as much to see me live with the sadness and pain. I just want it to end and I don't want to bring a little soul into this sad world just for it to hurt too.
I want to end it.
@TrixRiddle -- you are also worth helping! If are feeling this way, please contact suicide hotline resources (www.suicide.org or imalive.org). Once you are safe, please feel free to connect to a listener 1-1 so that we may help you.
