I am giving up on life
It is really an awful feeling when the person you most care about and love, does not hear you when you are in pain, alone, and longing to be with them. I truly love and care about her, from the bottom of my Heart. She is the only person that gives me the energy and light to move forward in life when everything surrounding me is so dark. But she does not want me … It does hurt, a lot. You cannot sleep at night. You wait for her to text. To comfort you. To just tell you everything will be alright. But it just doesn't happen. You cry yourself to sleep, and when there are no tears left, you start taking. I became an addict. Even with Assival it still hurts. You tell her I don't feel well, hoping she could see the pain you're feeling, but she replies back "I'm busy", "say your thing real fast", "I don't have time to call". How would you feel when someone treats you like that for over a year? When all you want is just to be with them. I don't know what to feel anymore. I have nothing left on the inside. Just sadness and despair. With all the things that are happening in my life, her not being with me hurts the most. I'm really giving up on life. I have been hurt a lot. What's the point of living if you spend most of it crying and in pain?
(Edited by @CheeryMango to remove dosage and drug name)
It's your life not hers , you need only yourself to live . You need to understand that life is more beautiful than just what we are going through . Once in a lifetime we alk face something that makes us to think that we should give up but we shouldn't because this is not the end . If we are going through misery now we'll soon be surrounded by happiness also . I really wish you understand because you are on this planet because you are needed and because you deserve it .
The same thing happened to me 2 weeks ago, i broke up with my bf, he said that he doesn't love me anymore, but you know you? I was really depressed and stop gaving a lot of affection, because of that, "he stoped loving me". Do you know what? Bullshit, i have the best of me for him, stop doing that and he runs away, fuck you. The person that is doing that to you dont deserve you, probably is making you feel worse, in suma, you should dump them, leaver them. In the beginning hurts a lot, and its normal, but with time, you start realizing all the things they did to you, and realized that they were a piece of poop. Hope you feel better, if you wanna vent my instagram is pipaapotes, because i don't know how ro use this app :,).