I cracked today...

I guess I didn't get enough sleep last night. I cracked and...well...I cried for a good bit,

Now I just feel tired.

I'm having some difficulty adjusting to my new job. I don't hate it. In fact, I'm learning a good bit. But I didn't really exercise my communication skills. And it got me chewed out for some things. Like showing up on a day I wasn't supposed to be working. Missing a day to set up my email.

It frustrates me, and I felt a mixture of shame to go with it. I didn't feel like myself. I've been trying my best to be helpful, to show interest and learn from other guys on the team, but I feel like it get's overshadowed by the blunders I've had in the one month that I've been working.

I want to move out. And this could be my ticket out. But it doesn't do me any good if I keep making mistakes. But I'm just a human, in the end....