Just Pouring Out My Thoughts [Heavyyyy vent]

I wish I knew what was on her mind. I wish I knew if she still loved me, or if she ever did. We normally talk every second we can. She doesn't live in the same state as me. But today, the only thing that answered me was silence. The small 'R' by the messages I sent proclaimed that they were seen, but unanswered. I understand, she said she might be busy a few days ago. But if that is the case, why do I see her talking to other people? It obviously must be me. But I don't know what I did to offend her. She stopped talking to me for no reason, it seems, none at all. I don't know why. It happens sometimes, and that just makes me so much more anxious than I already am. My mind is a storm of questions, all circling back to the same 'Why?'

I wanted to check one of our sites, and I tried to log on using her account. Why? I don't know. I don't. I wish I never did, I wish I never tried. She changed the password. She knows all of my passwords, and I know hers. But she changed hers. Such a small thing has me crazed with anxiety. I wish I never tried. I wish I could fall asleep, it's 3:46 but my thoughts are keeping me awake.

3:47. I'm so tired but my thoughts keep me awake. 3:48. I don't want to- I can't go to sleep without seeing her say "I love you".