Memories / which turn into racing thoughts
worst night ever for me, rolled into be at 3 am, been up since, turned on youtube for my sleep meditation , an it didn't help.
all i could think about was my experience at this place I was at, and how micromanaging it was , i was expected to do and do with out question, and when i asked for help, I was treated like i was being a giant bother and inconvience. I honestly want to write a letter, and be like Dear, you and you and you and you and you and you,
and just let it loose, and it is so frustrating cause if i did, i feel like it is a cheap and wrong thing to do, but i want that gratification of knowing that I at least spoke my mind even if it wasn't to their face and after the fact. Really wish I had some great key as to how to let these memories and thoughts go. It was a lil bad for me a few days ago I found myself hunting foolishly for a fool an NCO who i worked for way back in 97 2007 when i was in the army, or rather doing time, an i was like wtf am i doing this for, i know im wasting time and if i did find him I would go ape !
Glad i dont know his full name or how to even begin to find him,
@originalscreenname Hi there! I hope you're feeling a little after waking up :) From what I've read, I think you can try writing a blog to vent your musings and let yourself have a peace of mind! There are places like Wordpress or livejournal where you can blog anonymously.
If I have misinterpreted your post please let me know! I'll be around to listen to what you have to share :)
nope you didn't misinterpret at all, i got a few hours sleep, an i think i just need to not take a nap today so when it comes around to midnight i will be tired enough to pop back on my guided meditation for sleep an fall asleep fast an stay asleep a lot longer through the night.
I am going to check out that anonymous blog thing, cause i think that will be a great platform for me to let loose a good bit.
It will be better than actually writing an anonymous letter to the people i would prefer to write.
@originalscreenname Alright! I hope it will work out for you and I believe one day you will be able to sleep well. If you need any other help do feel free to ask around okay! :)
