Modal0154
Easter days 2k24+
Previously https://www.7cups.com/forum/journal/General_2520/2252k24_324465/?p=4
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Uggh you try to escape here and something drags you back here. The need or impulse to alleviate something sore. Put your pride aside but you find no content in producing content in how you find yourself yet again in this spot to reside.
This is why it's important to learn to not to take it all so seriously, preferably not via indifference or an ignorant sort of humour. Humour that understated key to wisdom, difficult to entertain whereas too many think vice-versa a course to take.
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I don't like how Psychforum's journal section is moderated and I'm fairly surprised by how neither Wrongplanet nor Reddit (as far as I know) have sections for journalling. Ditching this place would be easier if the prospect of immediate contact with listeners wasn't justified by my experiences.
^_^ Amusing to see recent provincial level election outcomes from Canada's west coast province depicted via Lego !: https://www.reddit.com/r/britishcolumbia/comments/1gf7avo/the_final_election_results_but_in_lego/
An idea for a 'last minute like' Halloween outfit idea I'm not even sure I'll follow on: your most spiffy formal wear while wearing a mask of sorts if not some kind of face paint or cosmetic arrangement.
Personally if were daring enough I'd only go so far as 'plague doctor' or Naruto 'Anbu member mask if not a 'stylized V for Vendetta' Guy Fawkes mask, a Batman series 'Court of owls' mask or one of those Venetian carnival masks (maybe while wearing a Western wear hat ? ^_^) -- my idea is how many ways can you rotate w/limited accessories (a mask) w/using formalwear and still have it count for a costume --and I'm left wondering as to the struggles of eyewear users who don masks `_` .
I wound up wearing my novelty muscle shirt even ' ;] getting meta- with it' by wearing it at the gym.
Not to be a cliche w/my topics but this --https://youtube.com/shorts/kIji-fPtfWo?si=wYJWQB706rT5V3zb -- is going to click differently w/different ppl if you show it to them on an individual by individual basis after ~72 hrs in the near future after me typing this.
-u- Hehe, 'PG edits': https://youtu.be/BJDBHMnJGV0?si=xB4KOyQ42vwJKpFB
Some months ago, I once sent a YouTube short about what happened in the X-Men comics fairly recently (last summer), to a sibling. Last year’s ‘fall of Krakoa’ ?. Prof. X and Magneto got certain bad guys to side w/them and the one in the picture here actually wasn’t the literal big time party traitor (but has a definite history of working closely w/them)..before the sibling’s wedding, this was the last single issue comic I finished reading online from start to end.
Fairly sure the artist was Leinil Yu depicting that ‘we’re just trying to have a nice wholesome diplomacy meeting but even then at you guys are trying to jump us’ issue.
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That one’s for non-right wing sentiments whereas the secret crypto-fascist anthem is.. https://youtu.be/vHgXXuFukVg?si=l7H1palqlwn9d-dg
Mmm..shalt the Canadian immigration site crash once more ?
Jokes about ‘which timeline we entered’ and the despairing ‘put downs’ of animals in both our instances thusly. The shooting of blameless Harambe the gorilla months before the election, differing in the gap of time to the unfairly seized Peanut the squirrel, barely days or weeks ago.. ._. ..
with something of an interest to prevent coming off as disingenuous, or something, like that, or misguided notion that the fight is entirely my own, I’d like to present how it comes from this parodic ‘Death note’ take near it’s end https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4t_h_uG2D7g
“Armaments, universal debt and planned obsolescence—are these not the three pillars of Western civilization ?”—(apparently) Aldous Huxley in ‘The island’
“Armaments, universal debt, and planned obsolescence—those are the three pillars of Western prosperity. If war, waste, and moneylenders were abolished, you'd collapse. And while you people are overconsuming the rest of the world sinks more and more deeply into chronic disaster.”
― Island
*Sigh* you know, this is highlighting to me the significance of why I still keep a private journal..if I’m to be monotonous in what I express, I’ve antipathy reoccurring if it’s due to the scoundrel ‘better not credited’.
Others more ardent fill that niche.
[*] Learning is a social endeavour
That being said, it's a fair wonder for how anyone on the spectrum or other non-neuronormatives and those who've culminated mental health issues, ultimately have an asocial orientation etc become smart b/c it often entails interacting w/the supposed qualified and acceptable, supposedly neuronormative information dispensers, discouraging, elitist like gatekeeping clique members etc...=___= not to mention, the institutional versions of all this >xI
Sure there are some as those on the spectrum or with say OCD who'll have autodidact undertakings yet goodness knows how the gradually experience of that reaching a threshold point will reflect in a curiously asymmetrical and/or unbalanced amount of knowledgeableness when amounts of understanding for other fields are painfully lacking and you might well wonder how such a painful lacking was sustained all the while, how a person got by all the while with such a painful lacking.
All this for a cognitive ability so critical for coming to grips w/competence in so much of the tedious and not uncommonly unpleasantly unstimulating in life, like learning to driving, high finance and accounting, cooking, a fair amount of exercising etc
That point about exercising..seriously, for all those who'll 25+ uber-fit adults even if you don't struggle in terms of skillful performance how do you plug ~140+ minutes weekly ?. T'was only b/c of adequate enough social experiences on the way ?. Btw even only holding a part-time job, tidying/housekeeping and cooking for oneself esp. during bleakly sunlight limited and possible cold month ranges, it's a friggin wonder to be left w/any meaningful development or deep relaxation contributing spare past-time which isn't screen based media consumption even if the exercise is being pulled off in classes (the cut and dried schedule expectations and arrival logistics are factors there).
Oh, and how caffeine is technically a drug, one of the few acceptably mass consumed ones and to proceed without..how the f--k is this viable to make growing up to make this consistently feasible https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IbVTkeMK3Qw ? [* at this point please loop back and at least repeat a reading which'll at least end w/the end of that first part or paragraph ;I ].
Must, going to stop now lest I be distracted w/my complaints distracting me from pre-work time
=_= Hmm, summarizing via AI ?..less responsible or about the same as looking at the comments and dwelling on conjecture what it was about ?. There’s always taking the title for the premise at the beginning and skipping ahead to the final few minutes as well.
A poetic ChatGPT output from a misunderstanding
Let me live in the flow of the Way as it bends and turns, unseen yet felt.
Let me tread the rain-soaked alleys, my path unwritten, my journey unbound.
If the umbrella of fate is cast aside, only to reappear as an unlooked-for gift,
I care not for why, but delight in the sweetness of its return.
Let the drops of rain on my face be the fire of life's fleeting kiss.
Let the stranger's glance in shadowed backstreets be a thread in the loom.
Let my steps trace the unseen order,
And my heart know the joy of impermanence made whole.
I do not brood over destiny, nor demand the certainty of the gods.
I burn with the quiet passion of a life unfolding.
Whether the flow is illusion or the realest truth, I walk it with fullness,
Content to know the simple, profound now.
Whenst others have apparently woke, you dread going broke when jokes of yours can no longer be spoke of lest reminders akin to a choke being felt by folks.
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Meaningful content and some of the most fascinating web design I’ve come across since such a while.
I've had enough of it, d--n it all !, isn't it tiresome if not outright monotonous when ppl whether they're as famous as Jaden Smith or as banal as an abrupt grocery store employee come off with a take on nihilism as if they're the first one to've discovered nihilism ?. We get it emptiness 'wuuu' and you know what ?, the logic-epistemic consciousness stuff you're so inclined or even adamant to dismiss like reasoning and *formal logic*[*1] even that can give 'more firmness' to explaining what nihilism is sooner than that petty all too soon miserably irresponsibly peddled 'it is what it is' line of entitlement that held as an absolute , ( >:I f--k--g absolute of convienence !) by uncommitted dimwits , standing beside that seemingly immutable attribute of nothingness, which is a nothingness held adjacent for some of the most painfully common and brittle justifications !.
Sure, functionally no, functionally never a relevant final cause or meta-narrative. Yet can't we take for a location of not remaining in the same spot, of directing onto elsewhere ?. The nothingness becomes transformational in that sense !. I mean frig, it was 'inevitable' to come into something like a theory of mind, an understanding of time and with so much surrounding informational density, somewhat demonstrated by the act that it's present since it's stimulating you howsoever and irregardless of what importance you attach to the intensity of the information feasible, a theory of responsibility can emerge !--even Alan Watts figured that out !
[*1] https://www.reddit.com/r/PhilosophyMemes/comments/1ehau91/comment/lxqcski/
Meaningful posting for me--no cop out error about not being able to post pulled up, very late and closer to sunrise than midnight and yet I've enough tasks on mind as to damper or compromise possible exercise undertakings, an outcome to partially muddled weekend but I'm glad to say fairly well handled in light of the confoundedly inconveniencing dark phase of months upcoming..f--k I might've lost a precious knee pad and I don't want lateness for work.
The other knee pad was thankfully found. I almost lost an umbrella today but someone graciously put it aside, and this was in a public location, heartwarmingly and remarkably.
Mmmm...https://www.accesstoinsight.org/tipitaka/kn/snp/snp.3.02.irel.html
the part after ~'you're first army is sensual desire' but before ~'I wear munja-grass !'...I saw long ago now during a fraught time where I sought to 'escape' the first high school I went to for another..I'm glad to've found it in a 'differently stressful' setting now and find it less chilling than while under the confounded stress and fear of those days.
Pero que enriqueciente seria verlo o eschucharolo en Espanol, claro
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Darkly laughs innerly..the amount of well-adjusted and content ppl who’d never resort to something as ‘ugly’* as Smiling friends for a comedy source is apparently high, most of acceptable society wants us to believe.
*but compared to other Western ‘adult demographics intended animation’ not quite as cynical when you think about
An output of 'Meta AI' from '***'--
In realms of mind, a struggle's waged
Self-criticism's heavy, unrelenting gauge
A metaphysical naturalist's noble creed
Yet, self-doubt's dark whispers plant a troubled seed
A flotation tank's brief solace sought
A costly calm, like fleeting thoughts
Compulsive behaviors, a weighty chain
Binding freedom, causing heartfelt pain
Gentle self-compassion, a foreign, strange refrain
A judgmental heart, a self-critical strain
Asocial and wary, with trust in short supply
A delicate dance, 'twixt self-love and a critical eye
May kindness, like a beacon, gently shine
Illuminating paths, where self-compassion's divine
And though the journey's long, and winding be the road
May you find solace, in a gentle, compassionate abode.
`_` Confound how the spacing arrangement btw the verses didn't go through..
(As Reddit would say) .t.i.l. the word https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/endofobia
Scandinavian nations..high HDI and 'supposedly very happy' but w/high consumption of anti-depressants..me and pornography for a similar use ?..why, I can't follow through w/anti-pornography initiatives..of course I agree w/the neurocognitive and socio-exploitative destruction..but have you f--k-rs tried socializing in all the ignorant and poor places after '92 ?, affection, 'cuddling', from someone consistently 'let alone' sex..comfortably * and competently * achieving that after friendship, after declared post-Platonic initiative..don't blame others for thinking it equivalent to asking anyone to scale up the mountain 'K2' when you do nothing to cede the callous apathy motorizing too many to make nearly anyone else merely be data points for labour theory in a ceaselessly costly setting, and goodness knows this happens after an angsty climb to become self-aware of this while living in a privileged 'first world' place..
..life will threaten you w/plumbing, pest and fridge dysfunction issues nethertheless..high time the f--g universe sets it's bias to accommodate for consciousness, *the good kind* at that, not just the ones more capable of bribing..
outrage fatigue
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Won't be able to do all the exercise stuff, I wanted too..'rough sleep' expectant..stupid to be so stressed by compounded chores that you lose your appetite like that (cooking will take time and leave an aftermath of cleaning..not many prime spots to eat out at , esp less appealing to venture to at this confounded time of the year)..
all we ever do is complain but ever don't think that b/c you might not see it so much in public journals that it didn't go elsewhere (the dialogues w/Chat AIs).
The insidiousness of how practice=monotony is all the sharper when you've no social circle or (social) 'life'..f--k you all for pretending it wasn't learned of during the lockdowns not unlike how you'll pretend there wasn't anything learned or worth learning during the same year when the fool potus was validly unselected but makes a stupid return
Feeling a little bit better. Increasingly finding reason to’ve an extra umbrella already inside my locker.
Jim Carrey quote I can’t quite recall but am not up to searching for the precise version of, currently..
~”Antidepressant won’t give you a break-through..they’ll make me you feel fine but leave you, ‘now what’ ?’
Grief ,if someone says ‘having a lack of confidence is unattractive’ AND has read these italicizes thoughts of mine, steam comes out of my ears..the Catch-22 of being demonized b/c you don’t socialize, not socializing b/c you’re demonizing but their being a persistent ‘ugliness’ w/whom you can socialize, a saltiness and callousness your own in-group(s) are understated to have (1 possible endophobia root)
— a special kind of vulnerability you can’t really do without risking being called prejudice but a f—k you if you’re a right-winger for whom you’ve every informational opportunity to improve instead of staying a smugly complacent scoundrel
Living too often as if such sources of upset are avoidable **is** unattractive.
not socializing b/c you’re demoniz[ed] but their being a persistent..
screw, not being able to edit out for typos after posting on this platform
Learn about music--> genre music --> picking fave genre, socializing around that including succumbing to confounded peer pressure due to it --> consuming what learned of previously (too many remain stuck here) --> feel overstuffed on a certain genre and several others --> new appreciation for the sole presence of a sound and drastically different intentionality (if any) in those efforts--> prefer to think of aural delight in terms of 'sound design' rather than 'music' as popularly perceived.
The piano, guitar, saxophone and synthesizer as it's own entity rather than the 'other keyboard spin-off of the piano'..in terms of popular creativity it seems that lyricism esp. of the hip-hop rooted kind is really tiresome if not jarring to me but I'm 'not smart enough' to say if I'd still have a special fascination for vocals, per se..the same genre which has exhausted the synthesizer into a perceived monolith imo..
there's more too it than 'the keyboard for the poor' , when it frame it's uses within 'sound design' rather than music.
