Modal0154: journal 3
It's a drag when you realize how 'the pursuit of emptiness*' has been pedalled to you or if you individually at least have followed it, been following it like any other ectastic tradition.
*This isn't a reference to 'existential hedonism' like what I brought up near the turn of the year/decade. This is more to say tranquility.
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Deeeeeeeeffinitelty know how that* feels like in literature and media.
*pursuit
During my call center days, I remember watching their videos:
But after watching that one I feel carried away and thinking 'dang!, I need to catch up and play a stock market video game/simulator a.s.a.p. ', when financial planning and pondering to move out is a tremendous pressure on it's own and given the nature of social assistance programs it's Uber-questionable that I would even be allowed to participate in the intimidatingly complicated and risky world of stocks/investing/'high finance'/'achieving passive income'.
Young Ron Carter reminds me of 'Mos Def'*, if his bread and hair were kept thicker more often.
*Yasiin Bey's old stage name for one Dante Terrell Smith?.
Ideas for, while listening to audiobook:
Chopping garlic
Crushing chalk
Sharpening pencils to a very exposed pencil leads while using tools which are not a regular sharpener
Based on a memory from a 'Cracked' podcast:
What the mass recognition and diminish meant of cigarette consumption was to the 20th century as far as anxiety generated public health issues go is what obesity and 'junk food'* are going to be this century.
Lastima es que invoca: https://www.msn.com/en-gb/news/world/40-stone-is-leader-arrested-in-iraq-but-is-too-heavy-for-car/ar-BBZ5HnX
*the highlighted unhealthiness of 'the malnourished obese'.
I hate how the 'deviant art' journal entries don't lend themselves to easy editing via mobile device.
Some have no talent for writing.
I have no talent for being happy.
Mutual disadvantage and double binds.
If I were to take HTML and computer stuff seriously again, the source code for this site would intrigue me
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wrong journal input moment, before--
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Finding out how I apparently still have access to Mac's online articles b/c even though the '$60 for access for a year for non-students' library card I had is no longer active, I can still use my employee 'Mosaic' network login.
Work today.
Nowadays Ligotti's 'the conspiracy against the human race' would be called s--tposting, albeit a powerfully nuanced kind.
Two certain reviews--
When you admit to how you will shower after work.
The historical denial to women of allowing them to openly express apodyopsis of males b/c of the anxiety of how males realize that if such a privledge were allowed in equal reciprocation to what is assumed males do we would be 'screwed' in that clicking w/someone, expecting to click w/someone female would be all the more difficult.
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Efron,Channing-Tatum are often subject to apodyopsis from women, from what I have been led to believe.
=_= Annoyed by how much, I will need to spend on buying 'pee pass' for dog.
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'pee pa*d*s'..